#they shouldnt ever fuck but they should keep doing shit like this

[natjennie]

can gay people ever be normal?

[toytulini]

wheres that post about how its hard to have like a fucking depression spiral or whatever while knitting bc lemme tell u im sitting here fighting back tears while actively crocheting and its not fucking working

[springcatalyst]

ive gotten past the 'feeling emotionally bad' part of being sick and gotten solidly to the 'im going to hit the next thing that doesnt work' part of being sick

[weixuldo]

Like a Drug

Toxic!Anakin x Reader

a/n: hihihi, this one is a pretty long one shot ahh sorry! its based on this ask from @hanasnx ! (Though I did change the promp a little) I just wanted to also update that It is officially finals week- so I'll be slower than i alr am SORRY!! but i have been working on the next xhapters of allow me and enigma when i get breaks!! I hope u enjoy! ALSO! Please don't stay w someone if they act the way anakin does in this fic- this is purely a scenario for fictional purposes, never let anyone do anything he does, to you.

Anakin has a very peculiar way of showing his love; well you call it love other people call it an unhealthy obsession... you finally realize how fucked up the situation is and leave- but the real question is how long can you stay away?

warnings: cursing, toxic bf ani, smex, cumplay, agressive behavior, mention of blood, fights, alluded sexual harassment, anakin is obsessive and posessive. (he's does some fucked up shit)

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“Get up” Anakin’s stern voice rang as he gripped your upper arm. 

You jumped at the unexpected contact- why was Anakin here? 

“Ani! You scared m-” you started to laugh before he tightened his grip.

“Now.” he growled. 

You looked back at your friends sitting across the table from you; their eyes were wide. Before you could say anything, Anakin started to pull you up. 

“Let go of her!” one of your friends demanded. 

He snapped his head towards her and only loosened his grip on you to stomp to the other side of the table. His tall frame towered as he glared daggers at her. 

“The fuck did you just say?” he spat.

She went pale and looked down at her lap. 

“That’s what I thought. Anyone else have any smart comments?” he huffed, before promptly pulling you out of the restaurant. 

Before you made it all the way out the door you mouthed an “its ok” to your friends before following your boyfriend outside. 

“Anakin, what the fuck?” you exclaimed, throwing your hands in the air. 

He continued towards his sleek black camaro (he loved to drive through the city at night, music blaring and his hand on his property, your thigh). 

“Don’t fucking ignore me Anakin!” you shouted, gaining the attention of an older couple who were heading inside the restaurant. 

Your cheeks burned as you caught their stares, but honestly you were used to this shit, it wasn’t the first time you and Ani had made a scene in public. Anakin always did this- he would get pissy over some irrelevant thing and you would get into an argument. 

He stopped and turned with such anger.

“You really wanna know? You shouldnt have to fuckin’ ask why I’m upset! If you ever thought of anyone but yourself you’d see how fucked up it is of you to get dinner with those bitches who want to break us up” he screamed; his beautiful blue eyes dark with rage. 

You knew Anakin hated your friends. And you knew they hated him.

“You know they don’t like me and always try to get you to leave- Meanwhile those sluts cant keep their legs shut; they’re probably just jealous cause I’m the only guy who gets to fuck you and they have to find a new one every night!” he spat. 

Most of your friends were in stable relationships, but of course Anakin didn’t bother to remember that. 

“How am I selfish Anakin? I just wanted to grab dinner with the girls and you didn’t even come up. I told them not to bring you up after the last fight” you sighed, exhausted from Anakin's irrational moods. 

His sculpted jaw clenched and his right eye twitched. 

“It's the fact that you still even allow their company, it’s disrespectful.”

You shook your head and huffed in disbelief. 

“Anakin, you are absolutely unbelievable. Un-fucking-believable… Do you even hear yourself right now?!” you screamed. 

“And not that it should even fucking matter, but how did you even know I was with them?” 

“I have your location- you know that” he stated as if you asked if the sky was blue. 

“I know that, but how about them?”

He knew where they were because he made several alternative snapchat accounts and pretended to be someone from school who was just looking for new friends.

He spent nights pretending to be an excited freshman who was wondering where the science building was. He used remix to send your friends snaps that made it look like he was on campus or hanging out downtown with other students. And eventually he gained their trust enough for them to turn on their snap map for him so he could “make sure they were safe” if they went somewhere, since it's “dangerous for us college girls down here”. 

“Intuition.” 

You rolled your eyes and laughed, “No way, you probably chipped their phones or some psycho shit cause you’re fucking crazy Anakin!” 

“Well if you just goddamn did what I told you we wouldn’t have to have these conversations or be in these situations” he replied dryly. 

“How many fucking “rules” are there for me to follow?! Everytime I go out or do anything, you find something to nit pick! It's exhausting! I don’t even know why I’m still with you?!”

“Get in the car.” he demanded. 

“You’re insane if you think-”

His whole demeanor shifted and he sighed, “baby, please… I’m sorry, let’s talk about this”. 

“No, Anakin- i’m done with your bullshit” you said, heading back towards the building. 

He felt his scarred eye twitch, but he needed to subdue his temper (just until he could take it out on your pretty pussy).

See, Anakin Skywalker was a master manipulator. He knew that no matter how much you fought or how insane he acted- you would always come back.

This was clockwork for him. You’d fight, he’d act vulnerable, you would fuck, and then you’d be good for a while. A perfect system. Never failed. 

He called your name with a desperate plea- he had no problem acting needy if it got him to where he needed to be, plus this gave you the illusion of having power in this familiar situation. 

You hesitantly turned around to meets his gaze; his beautiful blue eyes glassy with his brilliant manipulation. 

“Baby, I’m sorry- I just worry about you..” he spoke softly as you subconsciously came closer. 

Soon his strong arms were wrapped around your waist and his scent flooded your senses. 

“You know I can't control my feelings sometimes- I just love you too much- I can’t lose you too…” he whispered into your hair. 

You knew exactly what he was referring to with the “too”- his mother. He was very close with her, growing up she was all he had. A few years back she passed away and it took a big toll on your lover.

You never wanted to admit it, but you knew he used that to guilt trip you into staying or to get you to feel bad for him. 

You hated him. 

But you couldn’t stop…

You held him tighter and grabbed his shirt fabric, “I know Ani… I know”.

You were now crying too- You knew this was unhealthy- toxic even; but you just couldn’t quit him. 

You felt his strong arms lift you up and he carried you towards his camaro; you knew what came next… He’d comfort you, fuck you, then you would act as if no argument ever happened.

A cycle you had gotten all too familiar with. 

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“F-fuck” Anakin stuttered as he slammed his cock into you; intensive sounds of your bodies colliding, ricochet off the bedroom walls. 

“You feel s-so good Baby- doin’ so good for me” he praised as he thrusted in and out of your plush walls. You were lying on your back as he held one of your legs over his shoulder so he could hit even deeper. 

The glorious feeling of his calloused hands along your smooth stomach made you shiver. When you first started dating Anakin he told you that he would please you so well that no other men would be able to compare.

he was right…

No man could navigate your body the way he does, read your tells like he could, no man could make you cum as well as Anakin could.

He slowed his hips for a moment making you whine at the lack of movement from his thick cock. 

“Look at me baby”. 

You blinked your doe eyes open, tears falling from the corners. He observed your features before his eyes softened. 

“My girl, my pretty girl… always so lovely” she smiled before tenderly kissing you. 

“I love you more than anything” he whispered against your plump lips. 

This.

Moments like this were why you stayed: he could be kind- he was sweet- he did care. 

You were about to reciprocate his statement but were cut off by his hand tightly gripping around your throat as he continued snapping his hips into yours.

You squealed with each powerful thrust- it was ok, you’d tell him later. 

His swollen member was blushing red and as hard as could be. He absolutely adored having you below him, taking his dick like a champ- he remembered how proud he was when you were finally able to take all of him. 

A particularly hefty thrust sent his neurons firing and he knew he was almost at his end. He sloppily bucked his hips into your pelvis as his breathing became more erratic. 

“I’m gonna cum- w-where do you want it sweet girl?” he half stuttered, half moaned.

You patted your chest and gave Anakin a knowing look. 

With that he was gone, his brows knitted together in ecstasy and his hips lurched forward. A string of obscenities left his mouth as he quickly slid his dick out of you to aim for your chest. 

Barely one pump in, his warm seed coated your chest. You watched as his abs and thighs contracted with each wave of pleasure. Some of his damp curls stuck to his forehead, he had a sheen of sweat, and his cheeks were flushed. 

What a beautiful sight. 

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Anakin’s fingers tucked some wild strands of hair behind your ear as you slept peacefully beside him.

Last night cut it a little closer than he normally would have, but it all worked out because here you were, still with him- fast asleep in his bed. 

He grabbed your phone and began to go through your messages (an unhealthy habit he picked up a few months back), his fingers immediately moved to the new notifications from your friends.

He opened the pinned group chat and read the messages from last night. 

Where r u? Where’d he take u?

Are you alright?

WTF was that?!

Anakin rolled his eyes; your friends were always so dramatic. But he smiled when he saw your response. 

“Guys i'm good, ani took me home and we talked things out- he’s just been really stressed out lately, it's nothing to worry about!”

You were his good girl and he’d spoil you today for your loyalty. 

He continued to scroll passively until he got to the newer unread messages. 

y/n, can we all please talk when you get back- we’re worried about you

Yea, anakin doesn’t seem like he has the best intentions

We hate to see you in this situation

Babe, he’s toxic- u need to dump him

“...u need to dump him”

Anakin almost threw the phone across the room- no way these bitches were telling you to dump him?!

He was the only one who took care of you, he was the only one who knew what was best for you- who did these girls think they were?!

Before he could stop himself he took out his own phone and copied all of their numbers down so he could send several nasty message to the girls basically telling them to back the fuck off and being unnecessarily hateful.

After he blocked their numbers, he decided it was time for a shower, so he left you with a kiss and headed to the bathroom. 

The emptiness of the bed made you wake. For a moment, you began to search for Anakin but the shower in the other room indicated where he was. 

You smiled and cuddled further into his sheets. The warmth of the blankets began to pull you back into slumber but your phone interrupted the notion. 

It was one of the girls you had gotten dinner with last night, what would she be calling this early for?

“Hello?”

y/n, I’m sorry but you need to come back now, I don’t think it's the best idea for you to be with anakin-

“Wait, slow down… why?”

She sent you screenshots of the messages he sent and you almost dropped your phone.

“What the fuck?! Anakin sent this?”

Yes, this morning- I really think you should get out of that relationship y/n- I’ve been telling you this! He’s trying to make you dependent on only him- it's not healthy!

You took a moment to regain your thoughts and quickly said a goodbye when you heard the water stop running. 

Why would he be so cruel? You knew he had his issues but he’d never been so explicitly viscous before. Maybe your friends were right, you had been manipulated so much that you were defending his toxic behavior. This had to stop. 

You knew you wouldn’t be able to face him for long (he would just pull you back in). So you quickly began to gather your things so that it would be easier to leave after you talked with him. 

You almost had everything packed when the doorknob turned to reveal a fresh Anakin; his hair was still damp from the shower and his skin had a glistening shine from the residual steam. He had such a big smile… you hated this, but it needed to be done. 

“What’s going on princess?” he frowned when he saw your bag was already packed. 

“Anakin… I have to go” you said hurriedly. 

He moved in front of you and held up a hand, “Woah, can we talk about what’s going on? Why are you leaving in such a hurry?” he asked (genuinely worried). 

With a sigh, you looked him in the eye, “Anakin- we can’t keep doing this- we aren’t good for eachother”. 

He felt his chest tighten. 

“Was it your friends? Did they put those thoughts in your head?! I told you they weren’t-”

“Anakin! Please, enough! I saw what you said to them- Why the fuck would you say that? You’re not acting like the man I fell in love with… You’ve changed so much” you said with watery eyes.

For a moment he looked as if he were going to punch something but eventually he let out a breath and defeatedly stood to the side. Your words seemed to really hit him. 

“Angel, I do what I do because I love you- you know that. I know I’m messed up- but I’ve been working on it, Truly” he promised.

Tears fell as you shook your head, “I know Ani, but it's not fair to me- I can’t keep doing this! We always end up fighting and you always get upset”

“I DON'T!” Anakin unintentionally shouted, making you shrink away from him. 

“This is what I'm talking about Ani, I don’t wanna do this- no, i’m not doing this anymore. I’m leaving” you said, grabbing your things and heading for the door. 

He called your name but you ignored him, you almost got to his front door when he grabbed your upper arm. 

“Let go!” you shouted, snatching your arm from his hold.

“Please, just leave me alone” you cried as you walked out of the house and headed for the uber you sneakily called while he was still in the shower. 

As the uber drove away, you saw a confused and hurt Anakin standing in his driveway.

You put your head in your hands and cried… 

It needed to be done.

It had to. 

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A few months later

The early autumn air nipped at your skin as you haistilly exited the rowdy club. You shivered and crossed your arms after checking the time. 

10:34 pm

You had only gotten to the damn club 30 minutes ago and you already wanted to leave. You and some friends had gone out to reward yourselves for a hard week (and to hopefully get your mind off of your ex).

Some guy in the club had gotten a little too handsy fior your comfort- he attempted to put his hand up your dress and grope your breasts while you were just leaning over the bar to order another drink. You slapped him across the face and made your way outside to get some air. 

You wanted to leave; as you stood by the curb you felt the familiar sting of tears pricking at your eyes. 

Fuck. 

The sensation of alcohol warmed your tummy and clouded your thoughts. Warm, strong hands protecting you from any other man who dared to look at you. Fierce blue eyes warding off any unwanted attention- 

No. 

You physically shook your head and opened your phone to distract yourself. There was no fucking way you were thinking about him right now. You scrolled to your uber app and looked up rates for a ride back to your apartment. 

$40, $35, $47, $32, $43

The rates were through the roof, no way you were going to pay that just to get a few blocks home. 

Almost instinctively, your hands moved so that your thumb was shivering over Anakin’s number. 

What were you doing?!

You were about to swipe off when you realized: you weren’t willing to take an expensive uber, but you also didn’t want to walk that far in heels and at night. Maybe you should call him… at least you know him and he does owe you a favor anyways. 

Fuck it. 

You unblock and dial his number. 

Ring…

Ring…….

Ring………..

Voicemail.

You groaned. You knew very well what he was doing- he was making you call several times so that you would look desperate. He loved doing that shit. You dialed again. 

Ring…

 Rin- 

“Hey sweet thing, finally came to your senses?” he said, smugness dripping off his every word. 

“Anakin- please come pick me up” you sniffed. 

“And why would I do that? Why would I do you a favor after you’ve been such a bra-”

“Ani- someone tried to touch me- I wanna go home” you cried. 

The other end of the phone went silent. Anakin’s eye began to twitch and his grip on the phone tightened. 

“Where?” he gritted out. 

“What? I’m on fourth street, over by the old mill-”

“Where did he touch you?” he interrupted. 

You took a breath- maybe you shouldn’t have called Anakin, you knew he was going to cause a scene- but at the same time a dark part of you wanted him to become violent with his passion for you. 

“He put his hand up my skirt and started groping my breas-”

“I’m on my way” is all he said before finally adding-

“That fucker is dead.”

You breathed a sigh of relief, Ani was coming. 

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Anakin’s knuckles were a fiery red as he dealt several blows to the man who had dared to touch his girl. His vision clouded by rage and hatred; how dare someone try to touch what was his. 

Sure, you were broken up (or so you thought); but anakin saw it as just a small break- You were getting back together- he knew it.

All he was waiting on was your call. 

Once he was satisfied, he stood up and shook the blood off of his hand. He looked over his work; the man’s face wa bloodied and his lip was cracked (there was also possibly a tooth missing but Anakin didn’t really give a  fuck). 

He leaned over and spat, “Don’t ever touch someone who isn’t yours again”. 

He made his way through the crowd of stunned onlookers who all began to back away from him as he headed towards the bathroom. Once he got there, everyone stepped out and allowed him to walk in with no hesitation (They didn’t want to get on his bad side in any shape or form). 

He leaned on the sink and examined the cut on his cheekbone. 

Whatever. 

He turned on the faucet and washed the blood from his hands; no need for his beautiful girl to see the blood of a fucking perv. 

He dried his hands and exited the building to collect you from outside the building. 

You stood there, arms crossed, his jacket draped over your shoulders: his Angel. 

“Hey, sweetheart” he called in a soft voice as he put his arm around you. 

You looked at him with big eyes. 

“Are you alright?” He kissed your forehead. 

You nodded and hugged him closer to you.

“It's all taken care of, let's get you home”

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“I knew you’d come back” he broke the silence in the car (well, the radio was on- but you hadn’t spoken since he left the club).

“Anakin, can we please not talk about this right now? '' you said quietly. 

He glanced at you and put a tender hand on your thigh. 

“Angel, these past few weeks without you have been hell… I’m sorry for how I acted- I love you”.

You knew this was just another way he was trying to manipulate you- he definitely don’t attempt to better himself, but you couldn’t help but indulge him- after all… you missed him too. You placed one of your hands on top of his and met his eye. 

“Ani- will you take me to your’s?” you asked shyly, as if you hadn’t spent countless nights in his bed. 

He smiled and rubbed his hand along your leg, “Of course darling”. 

“Maybe I can help relieve some of your stress too,” he added with a deeper tone. 

You mentally sighed- of course he wanted that; but you also wouldn’t mind having him near you again, so you politely nodded with a smile. 

He squeezed your thigh, “That’s my girl, I knew you couldn’t quit me that easy”

You turned your head to look out the window at the bright city once more… He was right- you just couldn’t quit him.

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Once again anakin is completely fucked up in this fic- pls dont romantiscice this behavior in real life... other than that- I hope you enjoyed the fic lmfaooo. I haven't really written ani as an actually problamatic character before, its mostly just like rude or grumpy ani lmfao. but ty for stopping by!!

[sillyyuserr]

Chapter 117 analysis (WE’RE SO BACK) obviously spoilers for chapter 117 and chapter 114

i cooked with this one trust

Everyones looking for them yadayadayada terukane

Yk im pretty sure this is meant to be lore heavy but LOOK AT THEM

I don’t know how to word this correctly but since chapter 115/116 between akane and teru there seems to have been something that happened in which they stopped being freaky?? 😭 like ykwim hold on

in chapter 114 this happened

completely ruined almost everything they had, but in the span of a few days, shit still going on, they havent had their deserved break yet like they got on chapter 96-97 and somehow in the midst of all this teru’s forgiven(?) him and just moved on?? Really not sure but based on what we know ab the red house the next chapter may answer some of our questions

Also, this is so little i didn’t see it the first time reading but teru goes to the drink machine thing to get one and mixes like 4 of the sodas,

takes one sip decides its shit and switches with akane’s already half drunken out of tea. Indirect kiss guys wait

Also this is JUST like the date they all went on when aoi was gone. Again, aoi is gone here too 😭 my girl getting left out of everything is acc crazy

She comes in later tho and finally gets caught up for the first time in forever MAN aidairo must hate her😭

But also

We find out mitsuba and kou are going there TOO so for the first time i think ever we have the whole gang in one spot 🤥 alot of firsts this chapter smh

ALSO an honorable mention to this i saved best for last

Sir stay away from my children

ok but fr i have no fucking clue what to say ab this cus this is either ‘teehee im right ur wrong!!~~♡’ type shit which he does alot, or genuinely like what we all think it is, which considering outside context may, in fact make it make sense trust let me explain

teru says shit like this ALL THE TIME its kind of his ACTUAL personality aside from his fake shit, like the way he is only around akane and sometimes kou (at least what we’re shown) so you’d think he’s used to this, but his initial reaction is more of a ‘um. what.’

ALSO— backround MATTERS, the backround in this one, is pure black, which is only shown during stuff LIKE THIS (important stuff) example:

Black background either means its dark, or its something important, something meant to be remembered, or something like that (probably)

and that panel had a BLACK BACKROUND

Why is this important you may be asking, it has a black backround— so it must be, right? If this was a silly little ‘teehee you can’t do this im better than youuu!!!~~♡’ then it probably wouldnt even have a half panel it’d be another one of the mini panels, but it not only had a whole panel for just this, a black background ;blocking LITERALLY EVERYTHING OUT ASIDE FROM THIS AND WHAT HE’S SAID, but also, pay attention the contents of what he said.

(a different translation, this one is easier to read)

‘you are not in any position to oppose me, are you, aoi? ♡’ could mean, A LOT OF THINGS so i’ll put them in a bulletin here because any of them make for an interesting path we may be taking on ‘this’ reality😭😓

Number 1: he could be impliying, and or reminding akane, that he’s still engaged to aoi, and that if akane still thinks they shouldnt change this reality, he should reconsider, CONSIDERING he is engaged to aoi, as aforementioned. (Most likely this one)

Number 2: the power dynamic, yes akane is a school mystery with the ability to control time itself but also, teru is an exorcist, a skilled one at that— and could probably easily overpower akane in a 1v1 (lowk hyped to see this happen pls let them fight) teru may be poking fun, or reminding akane, that teru is in fact powerful, more than he seems to keep fresh on his mind — them having SO MUCH to do

Number 3: maybe instead he just felt like teasing akane and i wasted time+space for nothing and was looking way too into it (this is supposed to be the terukane option😪)

Never once has he used this before??? Obviously you cant talk in symbols but the heart kind of implies the user of this symbol is talking in a playful/slightly flirtatious tone, hence, the reaction:

Okay okay point is i think teru is still madly in love with him

WAAAHHHH just look at him pooks who else does he do this with smhh 😓 NO ONE

which i think may be PARTIALLY true but also not entirely because mayb im just a tweaker

Me when i when i ehen you whrn you when

This may make no sense at all, or alot of sense man idk its 3:12am i go back to school in like 2 weeks i am not ready for sophomore year gn

terukane will be real one day trust🤍🤍

[cutemeat]

The most fun thing for Charlie about freaking Dennis out (like "how much nut do you guys blow through in a month?") then moving on without addressing it is that like.. Dennis obviously WANTS to be found out, so so bad! But well Charlie won't let him have that :) it's essentially edging. Some psychosexual power play charden shit going on these days tbh, and Dennis is gonna keep falling for it for as long as he's A) fucked in the head <3, and B) keeps assuming Charlie is stupid, even tho he should know better. it's good stuff 👍

joe u just continue to put this shit into words better than i ever could and for that i thank u 🫡

"Some psychosexual power play charden shit going on these days tbh" like!!!! It's litrlly the Clip Show shit... Charlie leading the way approaching the bench and confronting Dennis on his inconsistencies, Dennis backing up like ohhh.. ohhh nooo... u guys caught me.. whatever shall i do??🥵🥵... But ultimately Charlie isn't gonna give him the satisfaction. As he shouldnt unless theres smth in it for him<33

dennis will Never give up his superiority complex and charlie ribbing him for it is the funniest shit ever so i support charlie in this endeavor... Also as many pointed out in the tags its like the same shit charlie was doing to mac before he came out.. Our boy is nothing if not consistent LOLOLOL

[witchykittyy]

Agreement 💖

@marcyyywukinnie asked: Hi could you make a fanfic Yandare Blitzo x reader x Yandare Stolas where they just fight about reader, before coming to terms that theyll share them??

I am soooooooo sorry about how late this is!!! I really am. Life's been really hectic and I went through a very depressive episode but I promise to be on top of stuff more often! I really hope you like it! ❤ Sorry if its not really enough fighting per say. 😅

TW: Demons, Hell, Blood, Arguing, Cursing (lots of it), Mentions of kidnapping, Stalking, and other yandere themes.

"Damn that was a fuck ton of clients!!!" Millie jumped up into Moxxie's arms pumped and covered in blood. "Yea it was and it was so fucking awesome! But I think imma head in for the night." You're the newest member of I.M.P. A few days ago you saw their help wanted poster and decided you needed the extra money so you decided to join. You got along really well with Moxxie, Millie and surprisingly Loona. The only person who doesn't seem to like you is Blitzo. He was always staring at you. Watching your every move like he's waiting for you to do something wrong. So you always tend to keep your distance.

"Yea I think me and Millie have had enough excitement for today as well. Goodbye sir! Goodbye Y/N!" "Bye Blizto! Bye N/N!" Moxxie and Millie wave goodbye as they leave. "Whatever, bye." Loona continues on reading her magazine. "Bye guys!" You wave goodbye to them sweetly. "Bye lovebirds! Don't get too kinky while I'm away!" You can almost hear Moxxie rolling his eyes at those words and you chuckle. Now its just you, Loona and... Blitzo. Though your back is turned you can feel his eyes burning into info our skin, its very unsettling so with out turning around you decided to say your goodbyes and leave. "Bye Blitzo! Bye Loona!" "Bye dork." Blitzo doesnt say anything and you start to walk off sill feeling his gaze on you. Suddenly he says "See you soon Y/N"

You got home and were extremely exhausted as you flopped down onto your semi comfortable bed. Due to only recently having a job you dont have that much money to buy yourself a nice place so for right now you're stuck in this crummy apartment. Even though you didnt mind your situation someone else did.

Stolas has been watching you from the day he saw you in the I.M.P headquarters while he was visiting Blitzo. He's been obssessed with you ever since he saw you and has stalked you finding out your likes, habits, dislikes and everything else about you. He truly believes that you deserve so much better than what you have. He loves you and believes you deserve to be treated like a queen. A problem with that is that Blizto is also in love with you. Stolas notices the stares he give you and the longing look in his eyes. He's sure Blitzo has noticed his interest as well and thats probably why Blitzo hasnt spoken to him. But nevermind that.

You change into your PJ', get into bed and start scrolling through Helltok. "Ah shit its getting dark and I have to work tomorrow" you sigh. "I guess I should go to bed as Moxxie would say thats the responsible thing to do." You turn off your phone and go to bed. Stolas stares at you from the window wishing that he were next to you.

After a while he sees someone climbing onto your balcony. He's about to go stop him but then the two lock eyes. "Stolas?! The fuck are you doing here?!" He almost tumbles off the balcony from the surprise. "I should be asking you the same question Blitzo." "Look dipshit im doing the same thing you are but going inside." Blizto starts opening the window. "Wait! We shouldnt do that it invading her privacy." He goes to stop him but then Blitzo slaps his hand away. "Oh and stalking her isnt invading her privacy?! Look just leave ok if you dont wanna do this. Not like I want you stealing my girl anyways." He grumbles the last part but Stolas is able to hear him. "Well I sure as hell am not leaving her alone with you." "Then come in with me." He grabs Stolas's hand and stealthly brings him into the room. Stolas blushes at the sudden contact. 'Wait why'd he blush? What the hell is happening to him?'

You're dead asleep on the bed. "So smart ass what do we do now?" He tries to cover up the fact that grabbing Blitzo's hand made him blush. "We look around bird brain." They start looking around the crummy place, dodging the clothes thrown on the floor. Eventually after looking around for a while Blitzo decides to look your computer as Stolas watches you sleep peacefully. Out of the corner of his eye Stolas sees him breaking into your computer. "Hey!" He yells silently. "What do you think you're doing?" "I'm looking through her computer dipshit." Blitzo rolls his eyes as though its obvious. "Well yes I know that but why?" "To make sure she ain't seeing some other loser."

Blitzo searches and suddenly stops dead in his tracks. "You need to see this birdie." They stare at the computer reading you're messages with some guy named Dennis. "Oh hell no" they growl out in unison. You whine and shift in your sleep as they go dead silent. Once they're sure you're not awake they continue. "We can't let this shit happen." Blitzo growls with malice. "I completely agree. This dirt bag isn't good enough for our Y/N." Stolas nods. "Wait, our?" "Well yes I suppose we'll need to team up to stop this guy and ensure that she stays with us. Is that an ok arrangement?" Stolas questions. "Yea.. Thatd be great." Blitzo looks down blushing madly.

[nintendont2502]

just saw ur caste dating discourse post and realized meulin would've been lambasted by all of those groups for getting w the 2 highest landdwelling castes. kankri would write her callout post. feferi would've been accused of coercing sollux to be w her etc etc

girl would be in the TRENCHES fighting off the waves of terminally online freaks kankri keeps sending her way,, someone save her

genuinely i dont think a single beta troll wouldve made it through the discourse unscathed LMAO

aradia? well clearly shes only with sollux because he could easily kill her w/ his psiionics (god help them if the grumblr mob ever finds out that he *did* technically do that one time)

tavros is held up as like the posterchild for why lowbloods and highbloods shouldnt be in quadrants even though he and vriska were uh. never in a quad together. does he try *telling* anyone that? probably not!

sollux? psiionics. threatening aradia into a quad. (also tbh getting into a quad with someone when youre a goldblood is lowkey problematic because what are they supposed to do after you're sent offplanet and helmed? its honestly really manipulative holding someones quad hostage only to leave them forever which is why all golds should take a vow of celibacy-) hes only making it worse by being an absolute dick to everyone involved and escalating shit so far that theres multiple attempts on his life and everyones *convinced* hes a serial manipulating asshole because lmao why would he tell those idiots theyre wrong

karkat? you mean that hemoanon freak thats probably just a highblood trying to pass himself off as a lower caste so he can manipulate lowbloods into his quads?

nepeta and equius would be torn APART - not only is he three castes higher than her, but hes also far physically stronger so clearly shes the weak defenseless victim here (they keep saying this even after she culls someone for it. nep im so sorry)

kanaya shouldnt even *be* in a quad since shes a jade and theyre meant to be sequestered (similar argument to golds where actually its really cruel and manipulative to be in a quad with someone when you know you two are going to be forced to be apart for sweeps - no they dont care that she left the caverns. she still shouldnt be doing that shit its a bad example for other jades smh)

terezis honestly the most divided because her relationships are either her and karkat (potential highblood, terezi might be victim *or* karkat is a lowblood and shes the one with power over him) or her and vriska (no one wants to know whats going on there). although tbh she is a lawyer which means she can get her quads tried and killed for whatever bullshit crime she can come up with if they try to leave :/ never date a cop lawyer folks

vriska. mind control. do i need to say more. every vriska relationship is toxic and awful and she wouldve been cancelled 50 times over if the ringleaders of her callout posts didnt mysteriously 'deactivate'

equius. too strong to date - how can you be in a quad with someone that not only has a shit ton of social power over you, but also could literally tear you apart if he wanted to. also lowkey problematic for making and fighting/kissing (??? its unclear online and no one wants to know) robots :/ like those are clearly stand ins for lowbloods that hes attacking/potentially fetishising and they literally have to do everything he says thats fucked up

gamzee. highblood. automatic oppressor. part of a niche religion - if you try to quad him you either have to convert (cultural (caste?) appropriation) or dont become part of the clurch (rude, disrespecting his beliefs). constant discourse about whether clowns can even consent to a quad because theyre presumably high all the time as part of their religious practices. constant discourse about how assuming clowns are high all the time as part of their religious practices is casteist as fuck.

eridan. somehow one of the least problematic trolls out of the group (which is saying a fucking LOT). only has quads with someone a caste higher than him (although that caste is fuschia. is he the victim here??). pursues lowbloods constantly though which is problematic as fuck (at least he doesnt kill them if they turn him down. the bar is on the fucking floor)

feferi. god forbid a woman do anything. pale with eridan? sure hes only a caste lower than her but also shes the literal fucking heiress - what was he gonna do, say no? he cant even hide in the ocean from her!! shes a seadweller too!! flushed with sollux? holy shit hes like 8 castes lower than her of fucking course he had to say yes! shes probably only dating him so she can helm him later anyway :/ really its problematic as shit for her to even have friendships with trolls of other castes because shes just using them without giving them the benefits of being in a quad (shes the literal heiress of course shes going to get whatever she wants from them) - but also if she stayed distant and didnt talk to anyone then shed be accused of being full of herself and thinking she was better than anyone else and #NotMyHeiress

[normystical]

“Hey. You’ve never seen my real face! Lovely to see you after your little break! Tylenols been saying some things about me, that aren’t real great. So I feel like I should state…”

“The toxic gossip chainnnn! I just was trying to comfort him! The toxic gossip chain, I have to say, it seemed easy to talk to! The toxic gossip chain, should’ve chugged along the tracks you hypocritical ASS! I’m just a demon wo-man, and I shouldnt have to stand, against these rumors, but hey. At least you’re having some fun!”

“So, greetings everyone! I’ve been summoned to talk about some things. Even though katena says I shouldn’t talk about it, she didn’t say I couldn’t, sing, about it! So you better listen”

“Around 12 years ago I made a few deals with Shizukana! But not some predatory deal like you’re trying to suggest! More of some, small kind of deals! I was just trying to help him, with the others! You know how you go to a party and that one friend who tries to include you with the people you hate and you’re like, “NTY!” That wasn’t like me! I helped him! It was helpful!”

“I’ve been in the afterlife for over 20 years! So because of that I’m a pretty powerful demon, but once I met you all, I realized I probably should have taken it slower! There were times talking to him when I would make him mad! Just annoying, nothing weird of me! I’ve owned him for years you see! And I’ve treated him better, and acted responsibly.”

“But you won’t listen to me will you!”

“So let’s see the toxic gossip chain! Always being rude with the, accusations! The toxic gossip chain! Melting me with the, defamation! The toxic gossip chainn! Keep calling me cass you, fucking ass! You lied upon my name just to get more fame. You want me to be defamed, but hey! Keep having your fun!”

“In all seriousness I love this attention! Sure having to make an apology is annoying! But I actually didn’t do it this time! Defamation is annoying when used against you! And I would never do something like grooming to Tylenol! Overall he’d be much more vocal about it wouldn’t he! Oh, you won’t ever believe me! Alright!”

“I thought that you want the truth! But thats a massive goof! Huh! You just want me gone, off this lawn! While you act perfect, like you’ve never done shit wrong!”

“Oh your complaints, “That won’t excuse it!” “We’re friends!” “He hated that!” He sees you all tiny rats!” 

“I’m sorry I didn’t realize you’re all reconnected so please, criticize me! Bring out the pure salt from your lovely friends! And we’ll just conveniently forget how it ends! I’m sure you really hate this, stupid-ass-responcee! I know you wanted me to say I was, completely wrong! Sorry I feel like making you mad, so let’s just ignore these rumors, that, let’s be real, are horrifically bad.” 

“Hey everyone I found out what happened to Ty! He hated us and talked to the wrong guy! But don’t fact check it now, no. You threaten me with salt every time I see! You don’t need any help in your little schemes. So exorcise me flick and damn! There I go…”

“I wanna take another time to talk about Tylenol or Shizukana. Yeah him? He agreed to all of this. I gave him the option, and now he says I didn’t.”

“I never took advantage of emotional distress! Sure I existed when his life was a mess. I always rely in the dealees, to decide if they wanna work with me.”

“Did I groom Retez? Yes!”

“Did I manipulate Shizukana? Yes!”

“Have I married someone, to make you all feel eugh? Yes!”

“Did I groom anyone else at all? NO!”

“But does it really matter what I say? No. Since everyone has decided that I will always lie about my actions! So. It’s not fun to have everyone think you’re the worst demon in the bunch… even though there are tons worse! So I just wanna say that. The only thing I’ve ever groomed are my 2 persian cats! I’m not a groomer! Just a loser… who didn’t understand I couldn’t talk with Shizu and I’m not taking advantage of him even though everyone thinks so! Because 12 years ago I walked him to school! So! Even though this song SHOULDNT change anyones mind about me… I still thought I should—‘take accountability’! And for my wife, who halfway supports me: thanks! And for everything, my intentions were always pretty shitty! So I feel pretty grrrreat!.”

“The toxic gossip chain. You’re, definitely missing something. The toxic gossip chain… trying to chain me to my past. The toxic gossip chain. While you listen to this track somethings happening in the back. These aren’t rumors, they’re facts. I highly doubt theres many gaps, I survived every crash and hey! Keep having your fun!”

“You know, just so everything is crystal clear, even if you understand! You’re definitely not confused!”

“I get that I’m a terrible person! But please, don’t cancel me oh-noooo! Sometimes I can be awful, and not have an online presence! Crazy! Ik! Sometimes I can make a conscious decision and you don’t have to take it, and break it! And excorsize it, and make my demise out of it and— oh noooo!”

“Sometimes I’m an awful person just because, I wanted to! And that isn’t anything different, thats just— me!”

“But what do WE know?”

“Fuck you all right?”

MSNSH BRO I DIDNT EVEN LISTEN TO THIS SONG YET, I HAD TO FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE JUST FOR THIS 😭

rip(?) my habit of reading "not a groomer, just a loser" to the tune of frustration tears lmfao

not a groomer~ just a loser~ do u want 2 inspect my eeeye...

not mad or upset or anything just letting you know </3

[edgar-allan-possum]

"The original submission had NONE of this info and only says that the character was from China. It didn't even have his name and this guy keeps complaining that people didn't read his mind and know exactly what he was talking about. Come off it, anon."

One this ask got answered very late and should have been up a long time ago (infact i thought it already had been but i looked and couldnt find it so whatever"

Two i shouldnt have had to explain every little detail to justify myself. My ask was about the problem of people assuming everyone is christian and that was inspired by seeing someone talk about xiao practicing religion the christian way, and i used him as an example because thats what inspired the ask.

And It was vague on purpose. genshin characters get talked about often here especially xiao or zhongli. I decided that the details of who the characters were was not necessary. And it shouldn't be. Why is christianity the fucking default for you people. Why do i need to write a fucking essay in order to convince you guys that he not christian? Why would i need to do that with any character especially if they are of a different race, born with a different culture, or in a different place than where Christianity originated? The character being from a region BASED ON china should have been enough. It takes no thought to understand a fictional place based solely on a real place would also include its religions and not ones from outside.

Thats my problem. Its that everyone thinks christianity is the default and no one has ever bothered to learn about other religions on a basic level.

If a character like that is christian then they are but there are so many characters like xiao that are so far from anything christian related that it's just ignorant to assume they would be. That any religious practices they would do are automatically christian.

What pissed me off was them saying "he would be religious" and then listing off christian religious practices. Like he isnt already religious and has his own practices. They just automatically assume that what he does (or is for that matter) isnt connected to any religion and that he would by default be christian.

You can't tell me shit like that isn't ignorant or downright offensive and racist.

What made me mad was people like you trying to defend that shit and making up excuses for why a character might be christian instead of just acknowledging that yeah a lot of people just assume this shit and its a problem and understanding not everyone is christian by default.

First, I want to include your original submission.

Your point, as far as I can see based on the wording here, is that a character from a country based on China cannot possibly be Christian. China actually has a Christian population that is facing genocide from their communist government. They've been there since the Tang Dynasty in the seventh century.

Second, "people like you". I don't play Genshin, don't know this character, and had no idea what your submission was about beyond claiming Chinese people can't be Christian. I understand that you are annoyed about people not doing research into Chinese religious practices for this character, but the majority of people will fall back on what they are familiar with when coming up with headcanons. It's not racist, they just aren't familiar with other cultures' practices and may not know where to start researching them.

Third, you may not feel that you had to provide details in the original submission, but you can't then also be angry that people didn't know what you were talking about. I believe you have mentioned that Xiao is some sort of religious leader? If your submission had been about people headcanoning a character who is a devout member of a specific religion as a different one (which seems to be the actual issue), then I probably would have agreed with you somewhat, even if I still don't see it as worth getting so worked up about.

Lastly, Christianity was not founded in America. It is a Mediterranean religion.

[sethdomain]

want my shipping takes that ill still probably get hanged for??? here we go. theyre basically all "everyone chill out" ...it seems like most people are just submitting ships theyd get cancelled for, not takes on shipping. ill do that after in case i completely misread what you were asking for

if ccbeeduo didnt want to get shipped they shouldnt have made their characters get married and have a son and fall in love. natural byproduct, really shouldve expected it. i still think ppl should have chilled fr but like, they both had plenty of examples of what fans were like, they shouldve taken that into account before making those character decisions.

cdapduo discourse was absolutely batshit insane and everyone who posted with a banner saying either "slime is quackity's son and if you ship them you're weird DNI" OR "they keep flirting, if you call slime quackity's son you're weird DNI" pissed me off. how about no one's weird because actually its a roleplay with lots of different perspectives and you can do whatever you want forever . obvs i understood people who were like "i believe this thing, dont fucking yell at me for it" but it sucks that people had to make banners for that fr.

in the same vein, the discourse with emeraldduo. though that one i dont/didnt see as much, i did still see those same banners. even as a family sbi fan, i never saw someone shipping emduo and thought "yeah let me go yell at them and tell them not to interact with me because i personally think theyre family-coded." the devotion is ambiguous but powerful.

Heat Waves was the funniest fic ive ever read because idgaf about either of those guys so it was just like 20 chapters of some guy crying and jacking off and then getting rejected.

i think rarepairs are based as fuck and mischaracterizing guys to fit your ship is fine do whatever you want forever!!!!!!!! people complained to hell and back about fanfics tagging characters and ships and them being ooc . WHO GIVE A FUCK THEY WROTE THAT SHIT FOR FREEEEEEEEE!!!!!! ALSO MANGOBALL'S MONSTER/CHEATER CHEATER WAS A MASTERPIECE

karlnapity was not perfect polyamory i see people glossing over the fact that when they first talked about polyamory quackity started attacking and biting when karl and sapnap kissed and thats fucking FUNNY i want to see more of THAT.

sorry for writing so much i have a lot of opinions

JESUS ANON, honestly idgaf bro i take any spicy opinion as long as its not going straight to 'i love pedophilia/incest' territory that my only rule man

For beeduo, idk if u mean the cc ship or the c ship cause honest to god i was a huge inniter back then and dont follow their stuff closelt that much, but im just gonna assume u mean the rpf cc shipping. Honestly, I don't really agree with ur take, its a bit victim blamey, both ranboo and tubbo were like young and in their naivety expect their fans to uphold their boundary to just not ship them in a rpf way and i think you should've respected their wishes man. You sometimes gotta be reminded that dsmp was just them guys having fun and if they want to rp as a husband then whatev man :p

I agree bruh, i think people were just sscared of a little doomed faggot in action

phil and techno doesn't even act like father/son in the dsmp canon anyway, they act like old bestie

imma be fr idgaf abt heatwaves but that sound awesome

sometime the back of my mind say that, but the evil demon that wants everything to be perfect take over anon.. its hard... I need to get mad at people...

no cucking is allowed in karlnapity... #lame

[m0e-ru]

hi ive been binging your blog a lot recently. i rlly adore the sheer effort you've given to these dumbass fucking characters that otherwise get such little people even attempting to appreciate or engage with them beyond very shallow depths. as someone who only really got into the p4 games relatively recently (2022. my only remembered experience with the series beforehand was like a couple episodes of the the p4anim years ago and playing p5 in 2016/2017) and kind of being shell-shocked by how characters like marie and teddie and namatame were perceived by the overall fanbase once i started engaging with it more i really appreciate all the writing and analysis and art and other shit you do for them. even the gas station attendant, a character i overlooked initially, i've come to love because of all the time and energy you put into picking them apart like a dead frog in a science class

uh yea idfk i feel generally vindicated by seeing the way you characterize these bitches. especially marie as someone who felt like a lot of her interesting aspects were evaporated by the fandom (somewhat because of p4ga i feel but but still) and wanted to see more silly fanart of her (and shumarie/soumarie/whatecvrer the fuck that wasn't just kind of surface level romance becuz i rlly do love their dynamic w how i see bancho in my head. idiots who dont know how to properly express themselves w one repressing themselves to adopt a likable persona and the other unable to shut the fuck up much to their own detriment. im not gonna get over that fucking "marie makes everyday sunny for him" post ever i think) so uh keep on keeping on and ill continue to like your posts and something

anyway dumb stupid cringe fucking rant over. i apologize if i come off like a loser i dont use this website and idk the general tumblr etiquette. im pretty sure shit like this shouldnt even go here but . dont need to respond to this i just wanted to yell into the void cuz i appreciate this account. rest of this will just be panels of marie and teddie and bancho from some of the p4g anthologies i own that i wanted to share in the off chance that you also dont already own said anthologies n have seen them befor. these r only from the last ID antho and the dengeki one because those r the only 2 i have proper pictures of

hai i read this ages ago and i wanna get back to it by saying youre so awesome possum forever and ever dont worry about your ettiquette because getting 3 essay worthy paragraphs of you talking is basically everyone ive met in the tumblr nation

another thing i remember is that a bestie also loved your offerings esp the last one because those two look so lalala AUAHUAHA okay i should answer this ask properly now that i have the time 🏃🏃🏃🏃

can we give it up for the bingers and blog skimmers !?!?!?! you guys are such an interesting breed i remember trying to do that in 2018 i can already recall the thrill going through my blood im so honored to see people doing that and moreso coming to me to tell me about it WAHAUHAHA 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

this gas station (blog) really is catered to the niche market of all time also because the way my brain is wired to just go in the dustiest nooks and corners of a community and thrive and live there. i AM the bug you see when you lift up the rock . hai . i'll do anything for these poor poor characters being tossed around like hot potato with people who dont bother understanding thing or even try to pick them up at all. also im getting such a kick every time someone tells me i got them into appreciating the attendant or even iznmi more OR in a different way. thats why im here bros . me when i do my JOB !!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

the way fandom handles shipping has always irked me because theres just SO much you can do with two characters than just make them hold hands. what if there was blood invovled, you know . /starts pacing around the room / you know im glad you know the know it's so cool you know /shaking you/ im glad i have a post that's affected you so much like i thought it was just a silly caption at the time and seeing it after 2 or 3 years is like "YEAHH i cooked this " and im glad you brought it to me hehehe

i hope this gas station brings you joy and you keep coming back for more etc etc and please know i really am happy to see you around in whatever branch you show up at 🫡🫡🫡 /explordes

[im-out-of-it]

shadowhunters show should’ve asked for volunteers to help write the storylines because I ME MYSELF AND I WOULD HAVE VOLUNTEERED AND I WOULD HAVE DISMISSED SOME OF THE WRITERS BECAUSE I HAVE GRAND IDEAS

I just started season two and it’s been a migraine already 😭 like Alec has such patience because I would have had him going off on jace

THIS MAN HAS ALMOST DIED TWICE FOR JACE AND FOR WHAT?????????

I do think Alec tells people off as he should but I don’t think it’s enough. guaranteed, it’s a shit ton more than book Alec but how has he not lost his mind? I know for fucking sure that Alec did not get paid enough to deal with any of that. and there isn’t enough Advil to cure Alec of his migraines he has daily because of jace and clary

SEND THEM BOTH TO IDRIS STAT

at least I can count on Magnus

and at least alec goes off on clary but-

I JUST WISH ALEC WOULD GO OFF ON JACE BECAUSE YOUR BESTIE SHOULDNT BE MAKING YOUR LIFE THAT MISERABLE

Alec shouldn’t be on his deathbed TWICE in over just 14 bloody episodes

if I was hired, I would have cut that CLACE shit out and have Alec stand up for himself. actually have the downworlders featured more. and I stated this before, but I would have loved to see Alec or Izzy have the more powerful gifts because I’ve had enough of basic bitches thinking they’re normal and then taking advantage of those supposed gifts when they find out they have power. it’s boring, tiresome, been overdone too much

but imagine how much better the show could’ve been if they rid as much of CLACE as possible?????? (also just get the whole rights because I would love TID and TLH adapted but not if CC is behind it) (she would destroy it)

and all the book fans would be so angry lmao

no I’m just saying like it makes me mad how much Alec sacrifices himself for jace and for what? why are we sacrificing so much here? Jace continues to make stupid choice after another and he almost pays zero consequences for it?????? everyone is so determined to save his life and clary’s????? FOR WHAT?????? Alec got his ass handed so many times in season one and I haven’t seen anyone as much apologize, show gratitude for Alec, or change their behavior towards him. Jace told Alec that his best wasn’t good enough- so why are we having Alec save jace over and over again?????

I’m glad they made the lightwoods the stars because they obviously didn’t get good treatment in the books. LOVE MY FAV FAMILY (and yes I will hate on the herondales because they deserve it. I don’t care if they have golden eyes or if CC views them as the best. they’re abusive (most) and never change their ways and think it’s okay to treat others as if they’re beneath them)

I’m ending my rant but they both irritate the fucking soul out of me. Jace is supposed to be so strong and powerful but both he and clary would be dead without Alec Izzy magnus etc trio and I’ve seen on an occasion where Alec kept up with Jace in terms of fighting

me anytime I see jace:

but I can appreciate the show for doing what they could’ve without totally changing the whole concept of the series. because jace and clary book versions are absolutely insufferable. if anyone has never read the books or haven’t in a while, you’ll be amazed at how atrocious their book versions are. and Alec hardly ever stands up for himself there. like you’ll watch the show and think wow some of this is cringe and then appreciate it after you read the books because ITS NOT THAT BAD LMAO

no because I always get so vexed with clary and Jace show versions but then I think about their book counterparts and then I’m like ok so it could’ve been worse 😭

I’m for real done but I’m just here for Malec so everyone, carry on

I’ll need to stock up on Advil for the upcoming CLACE scenes PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR THOUGHTS

[gayspock]

loike

i should redownload dating apps no i shouldnt i cant drive i cant go out i have no energy to go out and meet anyone andf im ugly im unlikeable and im annoying and its pathetic and nobody wants that like do you think you reek of like something ugly sometimes im whatever im nothin and i have nothing to even put in a profile i dont like the way i look i have no hobbies i have no life its a sad fucking picture you take of yourself when you feel semi fine and a blank thing of "hi. my name is hannah" like ok. and of course thats weird no ones going to show interest its like how do i put it its so revealing that stuff cuz you have to put it on a page and theres NOTHING THERE and you sit there and cry a bit because what happens in your dull life nothing you go to work you hate it you ownt exceed i get high or drunk alone in my room and then end up either passing out or crying like it matters and i keep freaking out why am i even in this line of work im not good at it or anything i just default to shit and dude my lifes embarrassing and no one can ever see and they werent ever gonna so why am igetting scared i get scaredlike oh my god my life is embarassing like dude nobody knows you, will ever know you or will ever care right. does anyonefeel crazy everyones like knows someone i should quit i dont fit in at work i dont know what the point of that im like i love giving up and leaving cuz i hate it here bitch you will hate it eveyrwhere does anyone think of all the times in their life theyve jsut left massive life stages and felt no remorse or anythignbecause nothing in it was good or woethwhile or happy and you just carry the resentment forward and whats it matter if i as worth anything would it ever be like that in the first place i dont think it would liek does anyone feel crazy would be really thats bad dont quit because of that do dont whatever just feel crazy i should quit im stuck in this fucking house i feel CRAZY

[patrick bateman gif]

[fayedartmouth]

Oh no please ramble as much as you like i love hearing your thoughts

AND YES FUCK YEAH WITH EVERYTHING YOU SAID

Even when jj hit rock bottom at the show we didn’t get any closure like you are telling me that boy who went on full alcoholic borderline suicidal and no one was there to help?? Wdym jj was telling pope he should have let the cop shoot him and pope didn’t do anything? Wdym jj was drinking a whole bottle and being distant for days and the rest of the pogues were too busy playing card games and rolling their eyes at his “antics”??Wdym jj told kie that luke is back and that he isn’t his actual father after all the abuse he endured and all we got was “sorry jayj :/” like sorry but my “do you have any idea how special your son is” kie would never

The only good thing we had is the “because jj loved you when he shouldn’t have” line at the courthouse and that. Is. It.

Even john b talking to jj about him becoming a godfather was absolute shit show and im sorry but it felt borderline selfish to me like my best friend is having an identity crisis oh wait let me talk to him about something good happening to me to make him happy and then getting mad at jj for lashing out when he was obv in a not good mental state of mind to process shit?? Like how about you talk to him about the cause of his depression and offer some reassurance instead??

The writers didn’t handle his arc well not at the beginning where they just made him suffer for fun (like why the hell did they make him open his mother casket and then getting locked in with the said casket that shit was creepy and scary even to me) not at the middle where he just suffered and nobody cared and definitely not at the ending where he suddenly had a moment of “realization” with no proper build up whatsoever (mind you his realization included endangering himself to save Sarah and yeah i do know it’s in character for him and it does make sense but the timing felt so off?? Like this is supposed to be his wake up call but they only let the suicidal character do a suicidal mission it only made me think that he realized he shouldnt wallow in sadness and come in terms with his feelings but do something productive instead like sacrificing himself for his friends as if that’s the only thing he’s worthy of)

What jj told kie during his death is 100% words to comfort her while i do believe that his family and kie is everything he ever wanted it’s still not something he already got but just starting to get like that boy only had two years of happiness with his family there was still so so much more ahead of him and it all got taken away

Now im the one who’s sorry for rambling lmao I didn’t realize how angry i still am at the writers until now BUT it also makes me more excited for your fix it. I can’t wait to devour it and so thankful you’re writing it seriously.

Can i ask a few questions though? Will you keep some of the plot lines like sarah pregnancy and luke not being jj biological father? If you don’t want to answer it’s totally okay im just really excited and curious with the fix it as a whole lol

Haha, I'll just drop the cut now and ramble, then.

It was just so weird because I thought the set up in Part 1 worked so well? Like I was ready to roll with it all? JJ messing up -- sure, that's in character. The bomb about his family -- okay. I think him finding out he's a Kook could be so well played. I was ready for his identity crisis and him choosing to be a Pogue first and foremost -- and him redeeming the loss of Poguelandia 2.0 with accepting Goat Island for their new home. Like -- it had such a clear arc to me that made so much sense and worked so well and allowed JJ to face some of his issues and come out on top.

I have to think that was the plan. And the writers just -- like -- threw their hands up when Rudy wanted out. Which is what I'm assuming happened but obviously don't know. It's the only explanation that even comes close to explaining the total chaos of part 2 because it is total chaos.

And just so badly done. LOL, like I can't even get over how many dropped plot points there were and how they threw all of JJ's parentage in there and him being a Kook -- and it meant nothing. Literally it meant nothing. And Groff killing him at the end was even undercut by the fact that Groff had already tried to murder him a few episodes before. It was just -- why???

But yeah to your points. The entire boat ride sequence I think was totally botched. Like JJ saying that to Pope and then it's just people playing games and getting annoyed with him. It's like -- RAFE got better treatment than JJ from the Pogues at this point. And I mean I understood John B's idea with telling him about being godfather but like sheesh JB, read the room. You think maybe talking about fatherhood might trigger JJ who has been abused and abandoned by both his fathers? When he had a father just try to kill him? I have to think maybe we just lost some scenes where they tried to talk to him but like he was having serious issues and I'm sure it would be difficult to live with him like that -- because he's THAT badly depressed and suicidal. JJ never got to talk once about any of it -- about being a Kook about his dad trying ot kill him about being abandoned so many times. I mean Groff trying to kill him after a lifetime of Luke's abused -- JJ's got to just be like, well maybe they're right. Maybe I shouldn't be here.

And I mean I LOVED JJ saving Sarah, I did. And I loved JB and JJ's reunion. But there was something completely wrong about it in that it reinforced JJ's unhealthy perception of himself. He got that love and support -- after he threw himself away. The lesson he got was that he mattered most when he gave himself up for his friend. It's all utility. JJ doesn't see his own inherent value and why would he? How could he?

JJ seeing his mother's body -- being in the crypt -- I mean the whole thing is just horrible. Like Groff's manipulation of JJ -- his attempted murder -- like JJ had to be so unmoored by it and he was barely keeping it together as it was. His identity crisis basically pushed him to conclude that -- kook or pogue, he was worthless and a waste of space except for what he can do for his friends.

Which is all he believed when he died.

I mean it's just honestly one of the saddest ends to a character who deserved so much more. Like anything the Pogues do now misses the point. They can try to get revenge; they can honor JJ's loyalty. But they missed it. They missed the fact that JJ died thinking he was worthless and that he didn't deserve the happy ending anyway. They can't fix they; they can't redeem it. The Pogues failed JJ in the most fundamental ways possible. I know JJ is the one who dug his own grave and buried it, but it is the Pogues who have to live the rest of their lives with it, right? And the more I have thought about JB's monologue, the more I hate it. JJ didn't live some short glorious life. JJ lived an awful life with 18 months of respite. He was a victim from the day he was born, and he was victimized the day he died. Yeah, he gave himself up for his friends, which is noble. And his friends? Never told him that he mattered to them. 

(To be fair, I did appreciate that Kie's last words to him were that she loved him. That was -- at least something.)

But no matter what the Pogues accomplish, the failure haunts everything for me. Not just that JJ died. But that JJ died at his absolute worst, telling them that he got everything he wanted (because he never believed he deserved more).

BUT ANYWAY.

Yes, the fix-it will follow ALL of the S4 storyline. Literally all of it. Everything you see on screen happened. Just -- like -- not the way you think it happened. Luke, in fact, has a significant role in the entire fic, and JJ is going to deal with the legacy from both his fathers (and eventually his mother). It is my goal to take the storylines that the show started -- and actually finish them instead of just cutting them off prematurely. So Groff, Luke, Larissa, Goat Island -- and even JJ's depression, suicidal ideation, and alcoholism are all going to be significant plot points. The show set this up very very dark and I'm going to actually let him face that and get through it.

And yeah, Sarah's pregnant. Pope has to figure out what to do with his life. John B has to become a dad. And I struggled with giving Cleo a plotline but I think I came up with something where she gets to have the family she never had. And poor Kiara gets it almost as bad as JJ, because she's going to lose herself almost completely. I'll even finish Rafe's redemption even though I'd rather not. But I'm using what S4 gave us completely.

[ghostcrows]

im not going out of my way to find discourse yk like i dont know what im finding is that even people i thought i was leveling with, im not level with at all. like people im mutuals with im finding myself seriously disagreeing with and you know how that goes on this website...you do not wanna go against the grain unless its in a way so extreme that it makes people go "this guys obviously right due to his extreme opinion and utter conviction about it"...

im finding this so fucking frustrating because of the framing of it all around. i'm frustrated that i feel like i've turned into some "transandrophobia truther" mouthpiece when that isnt how i feel either, i'm frustrated that any criticisms around, idk what else to call it, baeddelism?? i guess?? insofar as i understand it? which may not be very much, i get that...but it's like being framed as such that if you are against that style of framing of gender politics then you are against trans women, which i am not...i'm against SOME beliefs of SOME trans women but that is not the same thing

what i'm interested in is not "shutting down tma people" what i'm interested in is not "telling women to shut up and respect men(?! the kind of thing i keep seeing people saying and itll be over like...'trans girls and trans guys shouldnt fight we should have sex' posts that corny as they may be at times have been around for years and years but are now being recontextualized to fit an argument)"...all i am interested in is refuting the spread of repackaged radical feminism...which does not mean i am calling tma people terfs either...

it's touchy, i get that it's touchy and of course it would be BECAUSE of the very real conditions tma people live under and the very real shit that comes their way all the fucking time for everything they do...and it's hard to find people who both agree that the environment as it stands IS touchy and hostile and not also be like "yuppppp and thats trans womens fault" its not their fucking fault man this is like years of underlying Weird Gender Conceptualization coming to fruition in, really just the logical conclusion of tumblr style identity politics. and thats not on trans women to fucking answer for cause they didnt start this theyre just one part of a very overarching and frustrating Thing you know.

i guess it boils down as ever to "average tumblr user has never known nuance" . like . fuckkkk lol